3117. * # # This is illustrated by someone who was saying he knows what he wants, to whom it was suggested that he knows nothing else but whatever tends toward his pleasure, and nothing besides that. So the pleasure was portrayed by an almost yellow color into which he was let, but then instantly withheld from slipping into it. Then driven by another fantasy, he saw what I did not, that if he had not been held back, he would have slipped into a total self-destruction, so that now he no longer desires to be allowed to fall into his pleasures, which he foresees. Still he admits that even though he was evil, the Lord had sustained him. Now, having slipped into thinking of himself, he is said to be pressed by much anxiety. 1748, 10 Sept. * Following the author's indication, we are placing 3117 between 3115 and 3116.