3136. Then someone among the most foolhardy in the world-because he was unable, as he said, to bear the things that had happened to him-aroused by the fear of losing his reputation, about which he had been extremely solicitous in the world, then conceived the plan to seek a different Lord, as certain evil spirits had done previously [cf. 339, 3030], as he was also told, but in vain, being stubborn about going. So he distanced himself more and more from behind, with the intention of seeking a different Lord and a different heaven, where he could be without such a loss of reputation as was just then tormenting him, along with other things that had occurred that he had to bear before he could come to heaven. So he distanced himself more and more from behind, and did not want to return, even though those sent to him said many things so that he would turn back. The distance was farther from behind than I had thought possible within the space of the grand body.