3188. Moreover, for the sake of their convinced fantasy, others have desired nothing more ardently than death, such as those who hope for their own glory to fall in battle, and do indeed willingly fall for the sake of their convinced fantasy. Since these fantasies in the other life can be portrayed by women, therefore to someone who had been of this kind his fantasy was portrayed to him as a woman, whom he loved with deepest love, who was so ugly that never was anything uglier. 1748, 17 Sept.