3001. But as for those who had attracted it entirely toward themselves, so that I was not among them, they were not good, considering me as a dead tool, only themselves as alive, so because they took away all the meaning, I had to pause so often, and stop. Some of them, doing this not from a bad heart, because they did want to pray, today wanted not to behave that way and to let [the meaning] go back to me, so that they also could be there. This I clearly sensed, but because they wanted to do good from themselves, I nevertheless had to stop. This shows how the matter stands, that when a person on earth or a spirit might want to do good from their own power, they are not able, and they are clearly seen through, and it is entirely ineffective: so much ego clings to it. 1748, 31 Aug.